Wow...my last post was at the end of March, it's now the end of May. Whoopsy.

I apologise for my absence, I say that so frequently on this blog, but unfortunately from March- now I have been completely distracted by work for my degree! I had to hand in my final copy of my dissertation, which now I'm extremely worried about! I felt like I had done really well, but now it's been a month since handing it in, and we do not find out our grade until mid-June so doubt is beginning to set in! I also had my exams this month, and was working like a maniac to prepare myself for them, I revised in a way I never have before so I might do a post about that because it worked ridiculously well for me. It might not be everyone's cup of tea, and not everyone will be able to do it, my boyfriend is quite annoyed that he can't but I did not feel nervous for any exam, and felt so confident afterwards which I have no felt before so great time to feel good about my work in my last year of my degree! SO now I have completely finished university for my undergraduate degree! I calculated based on my previous assignments so far, that for half of my degree, I have scored 68.9 on average, which means I am 1% below a first honours. So annoying, but hopefully with my dissertation and exams worth so much, maybe I did well enough to push it over the edge! Fingers crossed, but I'll be very happy with a high 2:1 as thats what I need for my masters course.

Wow - it's hailing outside and it's May, what is happening to the world! Where is the sun? In Britain we had a week of beautiful sunshine during revision time - typical. And then it went away, and now it's just rain, hail, cloudyness. Absolute terrible; so disappointed mother nature come on, we need some bright sunshine to lighten up these dreary times! Anywhoo I noticed that I've had over 1000 views to this little blog, which made me so happy! I was very surprised considering I barely have subscribers and no-one really comments, so I always feel like I'm waffling on to myself. Alas, I will continue to talk to whoever is out there reading :)

Now as my degree has come to an end, I feel very weird because I constantly feel like I need to be doing work, or have reading to do, which I clearly don't. I've even emailed my course leader for my masters asking for a reading list, it's terrible! This may be due to the fact that I also quit my job recently. I had a horrible boss, and could not really stand working in that horrible environment any longer, so I bit the bullet and quit. I am registered with a temporary admin agency who find you receptionist/admin work so I have some sort of job. However, when I signed up, I said I need two weeks till my exams are over and then I can work full time for you. They then rang me three times in the last week about several jobs, all of which I had to reject because I had exams like I had previously told them. Then this week, they've only called me about one job and said that they had to send CVs off for a candidate to be chosen...now I feel like I have no purpose in life, no drive. So I thought, I'm going to do some work on my blog. In my research for my future career path, I've been quite scared about the prospects. I do not attend a red-brick university, so how likely am I to be accepted to one for a phd course? I have no idea, so I thought, instead of worrying, I'm just going to prepare myself to be excellent in what I do, so that when I do apply, I know it's not based on my abilities but simply my academic background (aka, where I come from) that affects whether I get let in! Which I think is likely to happen, so I'm trying to prepare myself.

I didn't know whether or not you would mind if I wrote a few posts on here about psychology and things I find interesting when I research? Just thought it might be interesting to learn a few random bits of information you might not know unless you study psychology! Well because no-one ever comments really I'm going to take that for a yes and start uploading some!

Also it was Ella & Lincoln's 1st birthday this year! Ella was 1 on the 27th of April and Lincoln was 1 on the 5th May! It's so strange we adopted them at such different stages in life, yet they were born a week apart. SO glad to have them both in my life now at least! But I do get sad that I couldn't give Lincoln a home until he was 6 months old, he must have gone through such hard times until then, I mean he is still scared of a lot of things, and he has scars on his beautiful face that you only notice when he has his head snuggled into your lap - yes he is very spoilt but after being alone on the streets for half his life, I think it's all he deserves! :)

P.s. Been majorly obsessed with Elementary & Hart of Dixie lately, I finished the Elementary season and oh my lord, brilliant. I love Lucy Lui as an actress and I'm glad she's in something I can watch all the time! Also Hart of Dixie, is just addictive in terms of the southern feel, I keep slipping into a deep south accent which is really annoying my boyfriend because I'm British & it just does not sound right. However I do get ridiculously annoyed by Zoe Hart thinking she is in love with George even though she's only kissed him once, not had enough interactions with him to warrant full blown love. Now I understand why young children think they are in love all the time, because the media makes it seem like a tiny thing that is achievable after one date. That is infatuation, difference. The word love is thrown around way too much, but more of that later! Finally, I have become obsessed with patchwork! I started making a patchwork quilt, I'd had the bits for about 8 months but now I'm finally getting around to making it & I love it! Here's a picture of it a few days ago, it's bigger now but I'll write a post about it! Because I love it too much not to share! I might also try the tone-it-up way of life, or just simply more healthy but maybe when it's not too rainy and I may actually like to go outside.

Have a great day!

xoxoxox